heard the news of the escape of JI leader?
damn scary. gives me the creeps.
http://www.straitstimes.com/Latest%2BNews/Singapore/STIStory_211363.html

furthermore he's lame.
i wonder how he escape frm the toilet initially.

he's planned to hijack a plane and crash it into changi airport before.
what if he's gonna bomb orchard tml?
pls don't. i'll be at orchard schooling tml.

i am scare..


anw im plannin on baking a cake.
haha. surprised?
nah. i was plannin to bake a cake since last yr july for mummy's birthday.
i even bought the whisk alr.
jus tt didnt find receipe or flour. haha.

hmm. i wan a mango cake. =)
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i just read thru my friendster's msg.
and guess what i saw. oooh.

someone who i doesnt know actually msg me commenting on me.
and leaving me no space for self denfense.
u shouldnt have restrict ur msging.
otherwise we could have some friendster msging war going on right nw baby.

so, to L,
words dont get me down.
furthermore i don't even know u to begin with, honey. ;)
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yawns.. so tired.
i fell aslp while watchin gong zhu xiao mei on telly @ 8pm.
and carry on sleepin lying on e sofa until 9.15pm.

i am really v tired.
yet i cant slp when my bedtime comes.

i have this stupid habit of not slpin when e time comes.
and i can only slp well when im not suppose to slp.
when i know i have somebody busy workin ard me.
example lik mummy's awake or walkin ard.
only then i can slp well. and in peace.

i dont really know how to explain also.
i hate my stupid habit.
haha.
i really wanna slp. im so so tired.
which is, in turn, turning me into a foul mood lady.
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everything's proceeding smoothly.
hehe. mummy starts talkin to me alr.
no prob!

but sometimes i wish i have a bigger family.
few yrs back i was happily sayin luckily i dont have a complete and big family.
if nt there will be so many ppl to control me and stuffs similiar.
but now. no.

i wish i had a big brother and a small sister.
i wish i had a compete and happy family.
i wish i could find him.
i wish we could all spend some time together.
complete with the impossible big bro and small sis.
arghh...


i envy ppl with big and happy family.
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ahh. peer influence.
what did i do??

seems like a nightmare.
full of regrets.

im sorry, friends who think i've turned gd.
but i did.
those close to me should know i've really turn good.
but i know disappointment stil exist.

all i can say is, sorry.


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shit shit.
mummy's ignoring me.
and worst of all, i dunno how to face her.
she jus act like nothing happen. wouldnt talk to me.
but still cook dinner for me.

didnt exchange more than 5 sentences of words.
terrible feeling.
i hate this disappointment feeling that i can feel.


shall not eleborate in case he finds out. haha.
ungentlemanly and bombish.






disappointed is such a big and powerful word.

10.47pm.
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i keep on forgeting what i wanted to blog about.
oh well, nvm.

losing interest in schooling.
most prob it's because i only study for 2 days a wk.
and hey! im gettin used to not working.
i dunno if i should feel happy or not.
cus if i start working again, i will cry.


yes. cry.
every new work i go i cry the day before i start work.
i don't know why this emotion sickness comes to me.

i feel so spoil and rotten inside my body now.
stomach's not feeling well again. must be too full.
yet im craving for things to bite
but stomach cant take it lah!


poor me.

congrats to sg for winning the bid for YOG.
i love sg. hearts.
anw XBai direct me some funny videos at youtube.
includes a bunch of ppl >100 doing funny things at e same time.
one of it was to suddenly freeze in e crowded area.
and it's alot of ppl doing it at e same time.

so, yea. funny. ;)
cheered me up for awhile.
but it becomes boring again.

had delicious lagsana for lunch today. haha.
and let me tell u what did stewart and i did in classroom today.

we took turns puttin stuffs in. First off was random helloKitty, Pig and Tortoise.
then comes the road, sun, grass, mountains and cliff.

and say hello to stewart's new friend at mac.

he's dressed in sesame top and has a bright red proud mane.
haha. not funny?

uh-oh...

love me.
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ok skip e foul mood.
im alot better alr.

ytd i asked this guy.
he was attached with his gf for quite some time alr.
i asked him if there's stil love btw them both.

surprisingly, he said yes.
he's e first guy who ever said yes.
make my jaws dropped onto e floor
and penatrate into 18 floor of hell.

love will becomes a commitment, responsibility and eventually a habit.
many might nt realise when their love changes into habit.

concludes. i cant even make sure my love wont change to a need eventually.
i cant even trust relationships anymore.
after i witness how fragile a few-yrs-long relationship is.


i am a bad girl.
i brought misery to other people.
sooner or later, i'll get into trouble.
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im probably feeling the lowest point of e mood chart in my life
feel so down and low..
randomly hates everything tt im doing now.
tired of everything and doesnt want to be god's puppet anymore.

i can wear contact lenses again!

went drinkin ytd night.
i think im gettin old or my body is gettin bad.
i cant drink anymore. i'd just keep vomiting.
and heart beating v fast now.
body trembling. no strength.

btw i jus went to vomit and shit.
so now my body is completely empty.
yet my hse doesnt have anything tt sounds nice to eat.
lousy...

i wish for someone to take care of me when i feel so sucidial.
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my eye's makin me stay at home for 1 wk plus alr.
not to mention going nearby places.
i want to go shoppin badly.

i think im going crazy stayin at home.
....................


p/s i hate it when i cant shout out loud that i like u.
i hate it when we both feel e same way and yet do nothing abt it.
i hate it when u told me abt happy stuffs u both did.
i hate it when i need u more then u need me.
i hate it when u're such a coward and did nothing for me.
i hate it when u disappoint me again and again.

i hate myself because i like you.
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felt lost when i just woke up.
nobody's at home as usual.

stomach's stil e same uneasy.
cook porriage for myself.
plain porriage with dried scallops.
suddenly wished to have someone to cook for me.



but im better now.
except that block and runny nose came at 3 plus.
and my nose remained heavy for 3 hrs.
sneezed until my eyes were painful.
swallowed some painkillers.

mummy's buying sushi back for dinner.
so lookin forward to it.
if i really cant finish sushi then im really sicked.


ought to bath first then start my sushi meal at 7. =)
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i jus pratically survived on love and plain water today.
stomach is turning bad.
i didnt eat anything for e whole day.
yet i cant manage to finish whipped potato frm kfc.

feels like vomiting with every spoon.
yet im so hungry.
i need some appetiser.

feels like im going spoil.

went to sch for only half an hr.
then i realise i cant take it anymore.
my eye hurts.
im having bad cough.

tt concludes, doc dont give u mc for no reason.
you need to stay at home and rest.

and i jus called up changi gnl hosp.
they asked me to stop my eye cream since my eyeball turns bloodshot aft applying.
yay! no more stinging pain...







met him for few hrs today.
suddenly feel like this cant go on.
yet, we both choose to carry on.
cant control is not an excuse to carry on like this.
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and i went visiting today.
it was e happiest visiting this half a yr.
we were so happy. no tears.
joking ard. so happy. hais.

did i mention the medicine tt i got frm changi hosp was e same frm e clinic?
& i didnt apply e ointment frm e clinic cus it was painful.
and now i have no choice.
i NEED to apply e lotion no matter how painful .
if nt it won't heal..

so i need to feel sharp stinging pain 3 times a day.
and feel like smth's in ur eye for e rest of e day.
for an entire wk! oh man.

yawn yawn. i feel so tired.
yet i cant slp. only can rest my eye and nt fall aslp.
it's v hard u know. need some skill..
if i fall aslp then i wont be able to slp at night.
then i wont be able to wake up for sch tml.

im having mc for 3 days. yet im going to go out for sch and visiting this 3 days.
hope nothing goes wrong with my eye.
i dont have a choice.. i cant miss my classes la!.

and my eye's stil abit swollen leh.
im afraid e doc didnt take out e germs completely.
then i have to go for operation again??! hais.
i hope it's only temp. aft a while then not swollen alr.



HAPPY VAL DAY IN ADVANCE to all couples.
im not gonna celebrate val day. cus i hate any festive seasons.
so i shall act like i dont know val day is coming.
lalala~
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i shallnt talk abt how painful my surgery was today.
cus e moment i recall e surgery, my eye starts to hurts.
and im stil stickin a blood stained eye patch on my face.
so tell me how painful do u think it is?

anw it's smth copied frm friendster for dwayne.
i mentioned to him that we shall not high-fived anymore.
and recited a little bit of this for him.

so dwayne, this is for ya.

..a smile leads to a laugh

...a laugh leads to a high 5

...a high 5 leads to a hug

...a hug leads to a kiss

...a kiss leads 2 a makeout

...makeout leads to a feel up

...a feel up leads 2 a finger

...a finger leads to a hand

...a hand leads to a lick

...a lick leads to a suck

...a suck leads 2 a f*ck.

...So tell me how many people are you
gonna smile at after you heard this
cuz sex is like math.

...u add the bed

..subtract the clothes

...divide the legs

...leave your solution

...and pray you dont multiply
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ahhhhh...
feel lik dying.

went back to e clinic as expected.
& e doctor scolded me for nt puttin my eye lotion.
.....
puttin e eye lotion into e eye is painful ok.
feels lik smth's in ur eye.
making u tear.
but i did a gd job dripping e eye drops!
i even force myself awake to drip e eye drop when 6 hrs past.
then back to slp. zz

& then he referred me to changi hosp.
so scary la. hospital seems complicated enough.
actually suppose to go right aft my clinic.
but i intend to go tml morning.
and mummy's taking half day to pei me to the hosp.

im really so scare.
they're really gonna cut my eye.
will they numb me?
i mean. if they numb me, they'll have to inject my face then!
wouldn't tt be super painful? face is super sensitive..

shit shit. joseph jus told me they'll inject my lower eye lids instead.
shit shit. tt sounds even more painful then e face.
SHIT.

but if they doesnt numb me.
then they CUT ME. its painful too...




really afraid.
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i saw my ex boss at hg.
haha.

didnt know he used to live at hg.
and dwayne told me he doesnt look like a mD at all.
haha.

anw. mr dwayne threw me home at 10plus.
left me alone, dunno what to do at home.

heading to plaza in few mins time.
to pass my time playin pokers. haha.

and i've actually gotten used to wearing specs alr.
aft wearing specs for a wk.
but i stil want my contact lenses back.
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feeling damn sad frm e moment i woke.
asked dwayne out for dinner.
hoping to feel a little bit better.

argh...
i shall go play my ndsl till dinner time
to keep my mind off running wild.

ps, i hate every festive season.


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shit shit shit.
almost a wk since my eye swelled up.
mummy says she'll bring me to see e doc again tml.
im scare of e 'operation'.
shit shit.
my eye's nt painful anymore.
but e swell still remains.
help meeee~.........................................
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internet has been down for a few days.
and i've called singnet 4 times in a day.
& they came down to fixed my phone line below my blk.

went drinkin last sat with cheryl @ smwhere near bugis.

she was forced by me to take a full bod picture in frnt of e crowded pub.
hence the expression.

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Don't Cry
Guns & Roses

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby

And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight
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Fantastic song.
and it somehow makes me cry even though e title spelled dont cry.
lols.

jus had my 2008 reunion dinner.
stuffed myself silly with food.
and how i feel lik vomiting.
and somehow got swayed by cheryl.
thinkin of going drinkin even though im tired and full.
which makes it a v good mood to slp.
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went for visiting on wed.
disappointed with him.
den down to canto.
but e insp wasnt there.
so gary had to make an appt with him to take back qiang's bike later in e mth.

went to sch on thurs.
startin was bored and uninteresting.
e first lesson of e wk was super boring lecturer.
who had a sissy ang moh accent.

did i say starting was uninteresting?
yea until ard 4pm.
was having a brk frm my lesson.
when i came out of e room frm refilling my water bottle,
i saw my damn fav moustache lecturer.
haha. he was playin with his colleague.
smiling.

den our eyes met for lik 0.5s.
and i went back to class.
aft class at 5pm, i went outta e classrm.
e moment i open e door, i saw him again!
woah. he took e same lift as me.
den i was like grining frm starhub centre to dhoby ghaut la.
looking so silly and all tt.

oh and thursday, happy last day to mr paul the ex-chauffeur to osram.

ok, so comes today.
i attended e fav lecturer's lesson.
but dun seem to see happy to see him alr.
haha. cus ytd i didnt have his lesson, yet i saw him.
so coincidence.

we are going to the zoo zoo zoo
how about you you you
you can come too too too
we are going to the zoo zoo zoo.

looking forward to nxt wk and cny.
loves.


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