i wish i had a older brother.
yes the channel 8 tv show tempt me!
it'd be so nice to have a brother u know.
someone who u can talk to and he trusts u on anything.
awww.....



and work totally sucks nowadays.
i swear i dunwan to be a temp staff anymore.
it jus sucks sucks sucks.
and i feel like dey jus snatch my pride and throw it on e flr
jumping and stepping on it a dozen times.

ask me y and e only thing i can tell u is dey jus ask me to do even e simpliest thing.
like photocopy blah blah bullshit.
it might sounds ok. but when dey really open their mouth and ask u ah
den u see the smelly part.

im like their maid u know!!
there was once i was super angry and unwillingly.
cus the sales mgr was always v busy to listen to wad my supv wanted to tell him.
and there was greenbean soup in e pantry.
and my supv actually ASKED me to take a cup to the sales mgr.
and aftwards she went to talk to him. easier to talk, she said. its jus pure "bribery" i say.
....
like super sucking up likdat lor.
if u wan to do the suck up part and leave me alone! y must i do the sucking up part for u??

&& my colleauge's wedding dinner on oct tt time. yea tt furama one.
you know that my dept ppl ask me??!!
in a fucking sacrastic manner.
"aye, he also got invite u ah?"
for godness sake!! im closer to him then u are ok.
we go smoking together!!

and e annual dinner at marriott.
dey actually said it in a sacarstic manner too.
depising me that im a temp. cus my supv says
"this is e first time we let temp go for annual dinner u know"
"ni you hao liao chi liao" - you got expensive things to eat already
do i really have to kneel down and pray to u or e company for letting me go for tt dinner.
im not really THAT poor and pathetic.
im really vvv angry.

and another incident today which really makes me super angry.
smth we were talking abt.
and she said i didnt get any accounts experience on my 6mth there.
HELLO?? u didnt wanted to teach me.
nobody wanted to teach me anything.
everyone's jus asking me to photocopy, answering e phonecalls, misc misc blah blah.
but e fact is that i DID work as a acct temp okay.
jus tt u all didnt do anything to polish me!!
jus WAIT!! till i get my acca and become a cpa.
i will come back and be YOUR BOSS >.<

arghhhh. so angry.
but no matter how much i write.
no one can really know how deep my pride is being hurt okay.
i hate being a temp. really.
its really hard pretending nt to take those stuffs into mind and still show ur smiling faces at them everyday.
i really feel like giving them a real black black thunder face. but cant!! xc



what would u do if u knew someone was bitching abt u..

i know they're talking behind my back.
not literally behind my back la.
cus dey didnt expect me to walk there and accidently heard it.
and it all started because i wan eating tibits directly out of e container.
she claimed i should TAKE OUT what i wan to eat and keep e container.
but its nt like as even i place e container right under my mouth when i eat likdat.
whats wrong with taking tibits one at a time to eat.
so aft telling me off, she went back to her seat.
and aft gew seconds i went there to take some files.
and then i saw her bitching to other ppl abt my 'unhygenic' ways.
but what can i do?? jus walk up and laugh and say "aiya nvm one la".

see.... its really so hard.........................................
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went down to boatquay last fri.
tt was nothing special. really.
EXCEPT tt.
we actually took a public transport HOME.

like my first time in eighteen yrs tt i took public home aft drinking.
we reached dere super early. and i mean early.
the same time dey opened the pub for biz. which was ard 8?
and left at 11.30pm. and rushed for e mrt.

so glad tt i didnt have to waste money on cab fares and dun have to owe someone a favour.


and i got my first bdae present this yr!
yea it was a belt. implying tt im fat -.-
it was bought frm e fashion show of burgundy. or so i heard.
but a fucking belt jus costs 198.
and e belt doesnt even have e labels there.
baiscally its jus a very normal belt and the material is those gunny sacks material.
no tag no labels no nothing.
i'd rather spent tt 200 on clothing! on 2nd thoughts, maybe facials.
lols.

monday passed quite peacefully.
hurray!! now awaiting friday......
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visiting's today.
next is 3rd nov.
why cant it be on my bdae!!! argh~

went shopping with shurong on sat.
and damn tt gucci lanyard which cost 230.
and dampen my mood for e rest of e day.

i must wait for e gucci sale.
i didnt seriously know gucci offer sale!!
damn whoever who gimme tt idea tt gucci doesnt have sale.

argh! and damn tt pushcart shop at bugis.
i was suppose to go and buy my fwen's present, alone.
i had smth in mind already.
it was a winnie the pooh pouch tt shurong already have.
lols.
i reached the place and suddenly realise tt i duno which characters she like!
so i called her and she didnt ans.
and i choose the piglet one.
and e salesgirl cut it down for me.
den suddenly!! my friend called back. and told me she like the pooh bear.
gosh gosh. den i ask e salesgirl to change it to the pooh one for me.
she said CANNOT.
once she cut it down she cant exchange it.
cus its nt their hse brand and its like a 'consignment'.
i cant define tt. but tt's wad she say to me la.
dumb!!
den i've got no choice but to buy 2 instead.
so went home sadly with the piglet and pooh pouches.
ahhh. sad..

i SHALL NT BE A IMPULSE SHOPPER ANYMORE.
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got another wedding invitation. 19 nov.
this time at swissotel the stamford.
the high and mighty sg proudest building, i should think so?
yea i jus went dere to celebrate my 17th birthday with mummy a yr ago.
ahhhh the 72 storey view.
but this time, their wedding's at 4th flr only. dream on!
and gotta give a big fat angpao too.
lols.

but it seems easier to go back hm aft the dinner.
cus the previous one at furama riverfnt, we couldnt get any cab.
and so... we walked all e way to clark quay mrt station.





this was taken at the furama wedding.
didnt take pic of the bride and groom thou.
cus all his relative we aint even know each other. was v paiseh enuf already. still can take pic mehs.
so explains the pic of e hotel's logo only. lmao.



and i've recently saw my friend's friend who look like the younger version of my boss!
the big big big boss of my company la.
i wanted badly to show boss my friend's photo.
but i cant get his photo.. so instead, i tot maybe i'll take my boss's pic to my friend instead.
argh.. its getting real messy.

so here's my boss pic. and all of the sales 'executive' in my company.
i still think salesman is a better word thou.



the girls are suppose to be models for the event.



whoever who take this picture must have another motive..............................




they look better in the office. serious.
its the clothes la.
stupid. they claim they have a BUDGET to keep to.
so that explains the clothes.. and the girls.
lols. i expect better girls u know.
and better clothes for the girls.



and picture i took at shangri-la's toilet half way while attacking e buffet lunch.
my face looks v fat in the two picture.






it wasnt my face!! it was the angle. yea yea. maybe jus joking..
some things u dun have to say it out loud right.
everyone's been saying my face gone fatter.
and nv did dey know dey leave a scar in my heart everytym dey said that.
lols.

and there was this joke in the office ytd.
cus in e morning, someone bought alot of buns.
and till the aftnn, there were still ard 7 left.
and late aft, ard 4pm, some auditors bought curry puffs for us.
and naturally, ppl all ate e currypuffs instead of the buns.

and i shouted v loudly.
"i shant waste food! aft i finish my currypuff i shall eat one bun."
and i was acting v noble to sacrifice my bodyshape for the bun. lols.
and boss saw tt i ate bun aft currypuff and made a remark tt i dun think i'll forget.
he said.
" eat and eat. later become fatter." zzzzzz
yes! the boss whom i had his picture on top.
he SAID that to me. so sad so sad.
i feel lik bangin the wall or finding a hole to hide my fat face.
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this song always makes me feel like
i've butterflies in my stomach.........
feels damn emo aft hearing it, always.
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lunch buffet was fun fun fun.
and super full. i mean the desert part only.
the main course buffet wasnt gd enuf. really.
but desert was pefectly fine.

and we actually ate for 3 hrs. lols.

this wk was v v tired.
but i duno why. i didnt go out at night.
but jus tired..

and last wk i was reading 8days.
and e horoscope part says someone unexpected will contact me this wk.
and guess wad. ruihai smsed me!! lols.
so so so so scary rt.
and nxt wk it says a romantic proposal is coming.
and i need to think twice.
woooww.. like so fun. lols. =X
i dun mean e romantic thing is nice. i mean trying to predict e future is fun. DUH.

bus 74 in e morning is super duper disgusting.
its NOT air-conditioned!!
hate tt alot. esp when u doll up nicely to go work and e wind jus simply blows ur hair messy JUST LIKE THAT.
when u've spend 15 mins looking into e mirror to perfect ur hair.

seems like i've only 2 more mths left to work. and to save $$ of cus.
4mths flies.
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and so.. i enjoyed myself at the wedding dinner at furama riverfrnt.
thou it wasnt really a perfect wedding.
and i certainly hope tt my wedding wont be like that.
cus e restaurant serv wasnt gd.
and e toasting part was too quiet.

and ytd. got bluff la!!
yea i wanted to make use of tt person and yet, he turn ard and bite me.
lols. so dumb rt.

and i bought 2 dresses ytd!!
im so so so in love with dress. and i didnt bought any tops or bottoms.
and i finally bought a bag.
yes. everybody in e office is laughing at my bag which looks like a market basket.
because it's hard. H-A-R-D. so it looks like a basket.
but say bye to the basket already ok.
but my new bag somehw seems a lil big for work.
nvm.. im going to study soon WHAT!

and met up with cheryl ytd.
she suddenly grew tall la. she's 17+ u know!!
and i wasnt wearing any heels. zz

looking forward to this wk. cus monday starts off with a lunch buffet @ shangri la hotel!
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im a poor judge of character.
my colleauge, whom look loyal to relationships..
was divorced before.

i mean.. i couldnt even dream of tt.
at tt instant, i was so afraid of wad lies ahead.
i really have no idea hw to live my long life..
im truely afraid of marriage now.

and on e way hm, i saw my pri sch fwen's dad.
he's still working as a bus conductor.
thou i didnt cal him la. too busy reading my mag. lols.
he has been working as a bus conductor since i knew him.
tt was like 10 yrs ago.
how did he remained in e same line for 10 fucking long yrs.
imagine.. taking e same bloody bus to work for 10 yrs.
tt's 3650 days u know??!!

i duno hw im going to go thru tt.
ahhhhhhhhhh. so unsure of e future.
i cant even stand my work now. and i only worked for 4mths.

and one more thing tt made me vex this morning.
it was tt feeling that u knew it wasnt lik this and yet u choose to believe it.
its like..
tt kinda uncertainty.
living in ur own world and doesnt wan to wake up.
still thinking u're in e same world as everyone else.
i wish someone will give me a big tight slap.

or rather, its like once u start a new relationship, u know it will end.
somehow, someday.
yes?

i feel like sec sch days again. being so childish and emotional all over.
yawns.. im eighteen already!!
i need to get over tt kinda stuffs soon.

jus.. v fan.
one day.. u'll have a taste of ur own medicine.
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ahhh mens.
y do mens have such high ego?
lol. its jus a random comment k.

another plain boring day passed.
didnt went out shopping for wks already.
thinking back i wonder how i endured.

work's v busy nowadays.
but nt my work.
cus dey are super super busy and dey dun have e time to actually ask mi to do things.
lols.

went for movie ytd.
suddenly felt tt i've changed.
jus few wks ago i told myself i wun go to e movies until he's out.
and now..
im really v sorry but life still has to go on right.
the world still spins..
watched resident evil. and i duno wad its abt.
except its v gruesome at some part.
and abt clones and e undead........lols.


cheers to monday tml.
i hate mondays.....
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went home late late late ytd.
and i will definately have not enuf slp today.
so i went to work later.
i mean. i smsed my colleague tt i'll be there ard 11.
lols. if dey ask i'd say wake up not feeling well, so rest.
but till now dey didnt ask. lols.

and because i work 2 hrs less today, i decided to be superwoman and forfeit my lunch.
but stupidily i was very hungry.
craving for nasi lemak and otahs!!
jus v hungry la. so desperately, i called 6777 3777.
yes, mac delivery and ordered a double cheese meal. ONLY.
stupid rt. lols.

and tt popcorns i ate a wk ago.. gave me 3 PIMPLES.
no where to hide my face already.
jus because my mouth were bloody itchy to eat it.
but i was expecting e pimples la.
it happened before too.


so tired but doesnt feel like slping.
so so looking forward to tml. tgif.
dun have to worry abt cant wake up the nxt day.


oh yes. jus wanted to mention.
its better being someone normal.
than to be someone with a reputation and riches.
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