woke up early to have breakfast with someone.
and yet tt someone didnt go for breakfast today.
so unexpected. haha.
so i ended up downstairs my house where i was jus standing 10 mins ago.
and i wasted busfare to and back.
haha.

i was talkin to him on e way back home frm e unfruitful trip.
and asked smth.
will things changed if i had known u before nov?
he didnt ans. so i ans myself.
i said. since nothing can be done anymore, i'll jus think what i hope to hear.
haha.

things really shouldnt been seen too clearly.
and i shouldnt know too much.

but anw.. i have practically nothing to do.
and im going to peek into my thick business law book later on.
and see if there's anything interesting things tt catches my attention.
haha!

&& im seriously praying for dinner tonight.
hasnt had tt feeling for long.



lotsa ppl say they care.
yes, talk is easy. talk is cheap.
but when i really needed them, where are they?
p/s im not talkin abt sr. i love her too much to hate her. lols

and i jus discover my pri sch friend's blog.
interesting la! and den this is what was in e blog.

"One of it was that everyday after school (Primary 5/6), which was 6pm, i would hang out with Wan Ting, Tai Ying and Kok Yong to chat around or just have some drinks. We would talk about almost anything. At that time, we would all buy "Tian Yu Di Lu Cha" from the mama shop for only 50cents. All of us will stay around till almost 8pm until we start to go home."

lol. really triggered my memory man!
alot of memory tucked away in e back of my brain.
and it all jus starts to come back only when reminded.
worst! i even misremembered something.
haha. i mean. like aft remembering something for, say 5 yrs.
den u realised what u remembered was wrong.
haha.

really missed my pri sch friends.
had some mass msn conversation. proposing a gathering or some sort.
then everybody start to chu pattern already.
all e diff diff type of power, swords. haha.
projects, overseas, misc misc..
ok i might be super free and might nt be able to understand.
but surely jus pluck out one day would be fine?
what's worst, my sec sch classmates dun keep in touch anymore.
those days, it is suppose to be left there and forgotten?
im really envious of ppl having gatherings.

and radio's yakking abt romance.
is love selfish? or is love noble?
quoting wat everyone says
"love is letting ur loved one be happy. and tt includes letting him/her go"

but y.. is letting him/her go really love?
arent u suppose to fight for love like its e end of e world?
giving in everything u have and love him/her like there's no other day left.
and after making tt comment, i realised im like a devil . haha.
its not tt i enjoy seeing ppl in a dilemma but i jus dunwan to give up smth tt i love
like seeing a bag u love in e shopping mall.
its a one and only pc in singapore.
but its reserved.
would u go and argue with e salesperson?

talk abt shopping, i wish i had e courage to go shoppin alone.
zzz..............


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so no dinner tonight yea?
hais.
when i heard tt i cried.
dunno y. lol. jus cried.

and i was sleeping for abt an hr likdat.
den suddenly my hse phone rang. mummy called.
she asked me abt handphone stuffs.
den aft she hang, my crying comes again.
shit shit what is wrong.
i think im at home and have nothing to do.
den i jus sit in front of e mirror and cry. it's freaky.
and i do not wish to be likdat.
but yet i dunwan to go out and find work.
but i feel so unproductive at home.

what should i do...................................................
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