im a poor judge of character.
my colleauge, whom look loyal to relationships..
was divorced before.

i mean.. i couldnt even dream of tt.
at tt instant, i was so afraid of wad lies ahead.
i really have no idea hw to live my long life..
im truely afraid of marriage now.

and on e way hm, i saw my pri sch fwen's dad.
he's still working as a bus conductor.
thou i didnt cal him la. too busy reading my mag. lols.
he has been working as a bus conductor since i knew him.
tt was like 10 yrs ago.
how did he remained in e same line for 10 fucking long yrs.
imagine.. taking e same bloody bus to work for 10 yrs.
tt's 3650 days u know??!!

i duno hw im going to go thru tt.
ahhhhhhhhhh. so unsure of e future.
i cant even stand my work now. and i only worked for 4mths.

and one more thing tt made me vex this morning.
it was tt feeling that u knew it wasnt lik this and yet u choose to believe it.
its like..
tt kinda uncertainty.
living in ur own world and doesnt wan to wake up.
still thinking u're in e same world as everyone else.
i wish someone will give me a big tight slap.

or rather, its like once u start a new relationship, u know it will end.
somehow, someday.
yes?

i feel like sec sch days again. being so childish and emotional all over.
yawns.. im eighteen already!!
i need to get over tt kinda stuffs soon.

jus.. v fan.
one day.. u'll have a taste of ur own medicine.
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