feeling real uneasy tis few days


been doing e wrong thing at work and got lotsa scolding
everything jus seems wrong without him.

i hate e sun for going home before i did.
i hate to walk home everynight in e dark, thinking abt him
i jus hate it! y cant i reach hm before 6pm while its stil bright.

god's supposedly trainin me to be independent.
but y me. lotsa and lotsa nonindependent girls ard.





workplace, everyone said i've quieten down.
some said dey miss my laughter.
hearing tt really pains my heart.
i didnt wanted to be like this.
i couldnt eat i couldnt slp.
i tot i could get on with life. i've tried. really.
but wen e sun's down, im full of heartache.





it has only been less than a wk.
how can i survive in e few yrs.
y cant i be strong
Y CANT I BE STRONG
Y CANT I BE STRONG??!!


until now. i stil drop tears everyday....




saw darling twice since i came back.

he's slim down. pains my heart.
tried to bring mag for him to read but it bounced back.
cus my itchy fingers tampered with e mag.
got a stern warning which gave me low low moral at e start of e day.
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